Going through an adversity at the moment regarding family is not a tiny matter to ignore. Accepting the fate that is waiting for me, soon I must part ways from the family I’ve grown and build a place of my own. The question that continues to echo my doubts and fears, “Am I ready?” It is for certain that a lot of people experience more complicated things in life, but it does not mean we’re ought to compare.
Although I am aware of such comparisons, it cannot be helped but to feel dread as the days go by, nearing the time that I must establish my own. To say I am not ready, yes I fully admit, but I am strengthening my resolve to commit to a decision that awaits me.
It is quite saddening, as the prospect of finding a new found someone to look forward to, I may not be in such position to spend time. As I am focused on the preparation for the deadline set by my step-father. I only have gratitude to what he has done to my life, I could not have received such opportunities of improving myself if it weren’t for him and my mother. Learning from his past, he serves as a role model for me to set up how I would become as I start to establish my own independence.
The only attitude I set from here on up to that day is gratitude. What you think about — and thank about — you bring about. And it is quite the challenge for me, as a test of my character and my ideals. How formidable does my dream stand up to that challenge? It is about time I prepare and prove myself as worthy of an independence such as that.
Savi Gorospe 